Empty Feeling

Well, I have been in Freeland lately. I decided to check out where the bead store used to be. I guess when people say you can never go back, they really mean it. There was the bead store (where it used to be atleast) and it was empty. I dont know what I was expecting, considering that it closed in November, but it still was a shock to the system. Brian tells me on quite a regular basis as we are driving around Saginaw that "He used to live there" as he points to an old building, or in some cases an empty lot where there used to be a building. I have never given this much thought, but it is strange to see something that is still so fresh in ones memory, but in reality is gone, or changed. It leaves this little blank space, that cannot be filled, for whatever reason. I still have pleasant memories, and even some hopes about the bead store. Somewhere in my head, I am wishing that someone(maybe my old manager, or maybe even myself) will re-rent this location, and again fill it with sparkly little pieces of glass, and friendly people drawn together by a similar hobby. I miss the people, I miss the atmosphere, and I miss the feeling of going to work at a place that I love. I havent gotten a new job (yet), and I dont think I will ever get one that will be quite the same as the bead store. Ive heard many people comment, and I whole heartedly agree, that a job at a bead store is the best job in the world.

Whats in a name?

What Gretchen Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

So I decided to see what this blogthing might say about my name, and that is what it said. I was a little surpirsed that it was so on! I dont put a lot of faith in these things, but you be the judge. Follow the link, and try out your own name, and see if its accurate.

I still cant find my camera, and I am starting to think that the boogey monster must have taken it. Why is it when we need something the most, that is when we cant have it? I have resigned myself to accepting the fact that I will have to buy a new one. I guess it was about time anyway. Good thing tax refund time is here, it will make this purchase a little easier on me. All I want to do is take some pictures!

I am starting to make some progress on my Mask for the Behind the Mask Challenge. Last weekend I finally got Brian(my husband) to cut the ceramic tile for me. Bet that hint is making you wonder. I am beading along happily on it and hoping it will work out as I am planning. Sometimes the plan has to change while I am in creation mode, but I think I have thought this one through nicely. Good thing the deadline was extended until the end of May. I am sure I will be able to get it done before that. Lets hope Brian gets his 1099 soon so that we can go do our taxes(then I can start taking work in progress photos).